When you are a bear of very little brain, and you think of things, you find sometimes that a thing which seemed very thingish inside you is often quite different when it gets out into the open and has other people looking at it.
I'm Addie Ghoul. This is my life. I go to the Culinary Institute of America. I love my friends. I live for the weekends. I have an awesomely beardtastic fire fightin' boyfriend. Talk to me!! :D
This is my weight loss blog:
I'm gonna be tracking it and making it happen. Time for a healthier ghoul!
So I’m applying for jobs.
I really hate to leave my job but I hate being at job, ya know? It sucks being there but I like being so used to a place and knowing where everything is and not even needing to look at recipes because I know them by heart. Gonna spend this week taking pictures of recipes and products to put together a portfolio so if I ever get to start my own place or get back into a small place I have some ideas and shit.
'Tis a sad day. I'm hoping I have something figured out so I can give my two weeks on Friday which will give me three more paychecks from this job. Two at two full weeks and one at one week; which will still be just enough to carry me through to a first paycheck at a new place.
This sucks. Fuck being an adult, right?
How I feel is something that has never mattered in my life because basically, I was told ‘there are things you don’t want to do that you have to do anyway.’ So I just assume everything is something I ‘have’ to do despite how I feel about it.
So now what do I do when I’m caught between royally screwing over a co-worker or making myself happy? I’m hanging onto life literally by a thread. If I got hit by a bus tomorrow, it’d be about 3 weeks too late frankly.
I know for some people it seems ‘obvious’ to choose yourself over someone else but I’ve never been that way. This fucking sucks.
And it doesn’t help that my boss is fucking crazy and no matter how I go about this ill be made to feel like shit.
I hate my job, guys…
Play with Oregon Humane Society kitty-cats through ROBOTIC TOYS that you can control through this website. IT HAS A LIVE FEED SO YOU CAN WATCH THEM WHILE YOU MOVE KITTY TOYS AROUND. AGHHAGHAHGAHGHAGHAHGHH
I’ve been resisting a cigg for months because I didn’t want Cj to be disappointed….
I get into his car and what do I see? A pack of parliaments…he’s been smoking!!!
Days like today make me want to be single SO bad. I really don’t even know why I stay with Cj anymore sometimes.
Don’t get me wrong….love seeing my friends get married and engaged…but it makes my heart hurt because my mom is so unreasonable about my relationship and I know no one will give a fuck if we ever get married.
Considering not ever getting married at this point.
I’m sorry….but when you’re 27 and constantly in and out of a relationship with the same person, and always for the same reasons, you look more ridiculous than 12 year olds claiming to know what love is.
Grow up. Stop going back to someone who you catch cheating on you every 6 months.
Yay! Today I am 24! :)
I hate when you’re sad for no reason; you’re with people, you’re fine, you’re happy, you’re laughing and smiling, but at the same time it almost feels like you’re not there. You keep dazing in and out of conversations, you cant focus on one single thing. And once you’re by yourself you don’t want to do anything, you’re sad and feel alone. Someone asks you what’s wrong and you want to tell them, but you don’t even know what’s wrong yourself.
This is me right now….